Let it all go

I find that achieving peace in my heart can be very hard when my mind is consumed by past relationships and when I define my happiness on my close relationships. I've realized in the past 6th months that the people I surround myself with, although they may make me laugh and I may have good times with them, they are for the most part shitty-ass friends. They are the people who hit you up Thursday-Saturday, but you would never actually want to tell them anything personal because they would never want to know. They are the people who go to great lengths to get attention from others, and will forgo their "friendship" with you to simply hook up with someone they barely know. They are the people that would rather make their own mistakes than listen to any experience or advice you have because they think you're just being bitchy and "don't understand" their situation.

To these friends: I'm ready to let you all go. You have some redeeming qualities, but they do not outweigh the selfishness of your hearts and your superficial ways of life. You use people, plain and simple and when people don't say what you want to hear you shut them down and out. You insult them, you talk behind their back and don't ever stop for a second to put yourself in their shoes. You have so little experiences in life and even less empathy and can not possibly make yourself happy. You are co-dependent and crave the drama or otherwise just do what you want regardless of the feelings of others and expect the people you know you are hurting to be okay with it. You make the people you hurt feel inferior because you lie and say that was not your intention, etc.
 
I know what you are doing, even though you may be too dim to even recognize you are doing it: you are getting what you want and don't care who you take down in the process. You are selfish, and I can't handle it at all anymore. I'm a horrible judge of character, I give people too many second chances and I constantly get hurt by simply being nice to people whom I know will bring more stress and pain to my life than laughter or companionship. I need to be done with this nonsense of allowing these people into my life.

I want to relax, I want to be around people that bring me happiness or calmness. I'm hoping I can weed out anyone who doesn't bring these things to a relationship or even an acquaintance so that I don't have to be around the negative energy, it does absolutely nothing good for the universe.


Great cover of Bob Marley's High Tide or Low Tide, it's beautiful.